Yes, I have read and listened to experts on self discovery
and have learnt quite a lot from them about dealing with life and living
successfully. I thought I had a wealth of theories and opinions and viewpoints
at my disposal to get through life in ‘awareness’ mode – until the last two
weeks.
Two weeks ago I was pushed into a situation where I began to
learn about myself like never before. I had no idea whatsoever that I was
entering a life lessons situation. The situation appeared to me as a chance to
do my thing in keeping body and soul together financially. It is not a
situation that I thought I would get into in a million years, but there I was
actively pursuing it. It was only when I was entrenched in it, night after
night, that it started to become clearer that I was there for a ‘reason’ beyond
what I had initially thought.
So, by now you know I’m not going to say what the situation
is (not just yet). However, I will say that more than ever, lately I’ve been thinking
a lot about ‘Purpose’ and trying to understand my true purpose in life. It
seems this new situation is showing me that to get there, I have to go through my
own lessons, not lessons that come from between the covers of a book, or a
lecture, or a life coach session. Lessons that I need to learn by being
entrenched smack in the middle of a life experience. I need to learn about, and
manage, who I am, to get to know why I am on this earth. This situation is showing me who I am. Revelation
is scary, it is painful, it is gut wrenching, but it is the truth.
There is a saying that goes “When the pupil is ready, the
teacher will appear” – I think it’s Socrates or Plato or one of them
philosopher guys who said it. The thing is, as I try to make some sense as to
where I am right now, I realize (when I think back) that I have been for some
time, in a space and place that was ripe for growth, and this situation
presented itself because I opened up myself to the Universe to intervene and do
what it had to do. I was ready, and so, the teacher, my current situation,
appeared.
I’m still confused as to the true lessons I have to learn in
my new situation, but I am learning to let go and let God (which is one of the
lessons I need to learn, actually). All I know is that at the end of this
experience, something big (maybe even in a small package) is going to appear in
my life. I know whatever it is will take me closer to understanding the truth
about why I showed up here on planet earth.
Why are you here, TnT sista? What is your truth?
Charms.
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